Anger.

I'm going to keep this post brief. So, remember how I was talking about my girlfriend going off her nut at me? Yeah, she's now my ex-girlfriend...

Basically, I went to her house last Friday to tell her I wasn't happy and wanted a break. To cut a long story short, she got really upset and started screaming and crying at me that she loved me and cared about me. She then explained how she was fed up of the arguing and my "bullshit" and dumped me. Fair enough, we had been together for more than 9 months and I'm the first to admit I cry far more than is considered "normal" for an 18 year old male.

So imagine my... discomfort when I find out that she may have already kissed someone else. I know a kiss isn't very serious, but for someone who looked me in the eyes and told me she couldn't imagine being with anyone else, and that she hoped I felt the same, it is a bit upsetting to hear this.

Now, because it's only been a week and she still means everything to me and I believe I do love her, hearing the possibility of her already getting in with someone else made me furious. In fact, it made me so jealous and angry that I got the jitters. If he'd been here and admitted it I wouldn't have been accountable for my actions.

Anyway, now that I've vented my anger I'll go watch some NCIS and listen to some Bublé. Oh, and by the way, I also feel like I've been eaten and shat out by one of those tunnel boring machines, which is the reason I called in sick to work. Not a good week to say the least.


And remember: It's better to seek forgiveness than ask permission...